I became a Bahá’í’ in London in June 1964, when I was 23 years old.
My awakening began some thirteen years earlier when living in the Middle East. My father was a career officer in the Royal Engineers, seconded to the Jordanian Arab Legion, and our family was living in a small Army base at Zerka. Our house overlooked a refugee camp for Palestinians displaced by the recently established State of Israel. Over our garden wall were refugee children living in tents, and as my mother did volunteer work for UNWR, I became increasingly aware of the injustices. Another significant experience at that time was that our Arab gardener who was illiterate would chant passages from the Koran – it was said that he had memorised the entire book. But I began to hear remarks about ‘infidels’ and that ‘only Christians are saved’. I felt confused because there seemed no logic to these remarks. My maternal grandmother, whom I loved very much, was a faithful Catholic all her life and when I stayed with my grandparents in London between boarding school and flights to Jordan I would accompany her to church. I loved to light a candle and happily knelt with her in prayer. However, after being confirmed at thirteen in the Church of England, I lost my belief in God and by the time I was twenty, sharing a flat in London and pursuing my career as a ballet dancer, I was desperately seeking a purpose in life, rejecting my conventional background, but convinced that there was order and a path for my life, if only I could discover what it was. I began to go into empty churches and ‘pray’, asking that I might discover the reason for my existence. I read whatever I could find about different religions. I knew that the poet T.S. Eliot, whose verse I much admired, was a devout Anglo Catholic and longed to find spiritual satisfaction in the Catholic Church, but could never reconcile the teachings with modern day life. There were times when I felt a sense of despair in my search.
Then, in August 1963, while rehearsing for a musical comedy show in London, I began having intense conversations with a young actor, Phillip Hinton, who was also in the cast. Each day after rehearsals we would talk and the next day I would come back with more questions. He rambled on about unity and prophecy, but what really caught my attention was the concept of ‘progressive revelation’. Immediately, that made sense and I remember telling whoever would listen to me about this very exciting and logical idea that throughout the history of humankind, God had manifested Himself as the Buddha, Muhammad, Christ, and now in the person of Bahá’u’lláh. I was surprised that others didn’t share my excitement!
Over the next nine moths I read, questioned, attended firesides at Rutland Gate, prayed – still not believing in God – and gradually came to recognise the station of Bahá’u’lláh’. It was the most exciting and intense time of my life. All my adult life I had been searching, and here was this supreme claim. I could find no flaws, and I longed to belong. By now I had read Some Answered Questions, Paris Talks, Gleanings, The Dawn Breakers, God Passes By, The Kitáb-i-Íqán and Epistle to the Son of the Wolf, The Seven Valleys and Four Valleys, The Hidden Words (that was about all that was published in English at that time). Finally one morning I rang the National Secretary, Mrs Betty Reed – but then put the phone down before it was answered! The next day I rang again and, this time, told her I wanted to be a Bahá’í. “Well that’s very nice dear,” she said, “but you will need to write to the Local Spiritual Assembly of London, state that you accept Bahá’u’lláh as the Manifestation of God for today, the Báb as the Forerunner, and all the past prophets. You should also state that you accept ‘Abdu-l’Bahá as the Centre of the Covenant and the Perfect Exemplar and that you accept the laws and ordinances of the Bahá’í Faith!” Well, I was a little surprised that she was not excited about my declaration – there were very few young people in the Faith in London at that time and it had taken me great courage to pick up the telephone! Over the next week I laboured over my letter, deep into the night, and I continued to pray for certitude. I have no record of my letter or of the reply, but there must have been one, because I remember attending my first Nineteen Day Feast at Rutland Gate soon after. Not that it was particularly memorable – about twenty elderly friends and several teenage girls!
The following few months were memorable, I left my job, I left my flat, I went to Paris to stay with family friends, we drove to Florence to visit the art galleries, in Paris auditioned for the renowned modern ballet choreographer Roland Petit, but instead of going to the call-back audition I went to Frankfurt for the opening of the Bahá’í House of Worship. Somehow I knew there was to be a four-day program, so I took the overnight train, booked into the youth hostel and got myself out to Langenhain.
It was an incredible experience. I knew no one, but there were hundreds of Bahá’ís from all walks of life and cultures visiting the newly opened House of Worship. When I entered and lifted my head upward, I saw light upon light streaming down through the glass-sectioned dome on to what seemed like the entire human race. I stood there with tears streaming down my face – I was home.
Soon after, I returned to London and accepted Phillip’s ardent marriage proposal! My parents insisted on a year’s delay, and so late in 1964, Phillip and I took off to South Africa, performing in a season of Shakespeare in Cape Town’s Maynardville open-air theatre and staying with Phillip’s father and stepmother. Again, I had the opportunity to meet more of my Bahá’í family: Phillip’s spiritual father, pioneer Lowell Johnson, the wonderful Cape Town community, and the Bahá’í friends in Lesotho.
Phillip was due to make a pilgrimage to the World Centre in March, and as I was a new Bahá’í, he cabled the Universal House of Justice from Cape Town to ask if I could join the pilgrimage. We were in a group of just seven Western pilgrims. One of the very last groups to do so, we stayed in Haifa as guests of the House of Justice, in the building adjacent to the Shrines which later became the Pilgrim Centre. We had meals there, always attended by one or two members of the House of Justice and at least one Hand of the Cause. In Haifa our daily guide was Hand of the Cause Paul Haney, with whom we formed a deep, lasting friendship. Then we were driven to Bahji with Hand of the Cause Abu’l-Qásim Faizi as our guide. Another life-long friendship came out of this time with him. We slept in the Mansion of Bahá’u’lláh’, and Amatu’l-Bahá Rúhíyyih Khánum spent precious moments with us at the Shrine in Bahji.
With our hearts still full of this overwhelming bounty, we returned to London and were married on the last day of April 1965, after many difficulties in obtaining consent and agreement on the wedding ceremony. In the 1960s the civil ceremony preceded the Bahá’í marriage. A few Bahá’ís attended the reception given by my parents after the civil ceremony, on the condition that no mention be made of the Bahá’í ceremony to follow. None of my family came to Rutland Gate where dear Audrey and Earl Cameron had arranged prayers and refreshments and our beloved Owen and Jeanette Battrick conducted the ceremony.
During the first nine months of our marriage we were blessed to get to know Adib Taherzadeh. We stayed with him in Dublin during a two-month engagement in The King and I at the Gaiety Theatre. After that he would stay with us in our modest basement flat in Kensington during National Assembly meetings.
Our five years as pioneers in Epsom, Surrey were, for both us, the opportunity to consolidate our Faith, gain a broader appreciation of the implications of the Faith and first experience Bahá’í Administration.
The Bahá’í community of Epsom is significant for many Bahá’ís and much of these associations centred round ‘Clerdoun’, the home of Patrick and Christine Beer. While we were there in the early ’70s, we had visits from four Hands of the Cause, enrolled over twelve new Bahá’ís, almost all young, held what may have been the first nine day institute in England, hosted a concert for England Dan (Dan Seals) and John Ford Coley, opened our homes to some of the first Bahá’í migrants from Iran, regularly went ‘street teaching’ and literally experienced people knocking on our doors wanting to know about the Bahá’í Faith! We will never forget our dear friends, Mahin and Ray Humphrey, Pat and Chris, Patsy and Graham Jenkins, Helen Babb, Lindsay Moffat, Iran Jolly, Margot Priest, Simon Mortimore, Hugh Blyth and many others. It was a life full of love and excitement – a perfect environment for our two little boys, Sean and Simon.
In late 1974 we pioneered to Australia and settled in Sydney, where we had our third son, Benjamin, and raised our children, and now our seven grandchildren, with the loving support of the Bahá’í community. We have been very blessed and had many and various opportunities for service.
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Ann Hinton
Wollongong, NSW, Australia, January 2014
joybehi said:
Thank you so much, dear Ann. Great to read and reread! Love to you from Qatar! Joy Behi
May Moore said:
Ann, you lovely lady. Your account, though brief, gives a glimpse into your profound faith, your love for Bahá’u’lláh and your unreserved services to His Cause. An example to us all. (Not difficult to know why Faizi felt such love for you and Phillip).
With my fondest memories of our, albeit brief, times together and in the hope of seeing you again – this time in Cyprus.
May (Moore)
Vida said:
Dearest Ann,
I don’t know if you remember me but I certainly remember both you and Phillip as a stunningly beautiful couple (both inside and out!) from when you were staying in Ireland! Thank you for sharing your story.
Iran Jolly said:
Read both yours and Phillip’s stories. Your love reached me from thousands of miles away and brought back memories.
What rich and fruitful lives both of you and your children have led. Happy to know Sean and Mark have remained friends from the early days of Baha’i children classes in Epsom and are still in touch with each other.
Love
Iran
carolyn1995 said:
Lovely to find your story today Ann! Your years in Epsom were part of my early years in the Faith from 1970, when Pearl & Edgar Boyett would drive to Epsom every Friday to support what was then a lapsed County Assembly. Since then our meetings have been few and far between – at the ‘Lotus Temple’ Dedication in Delhi, and most recently at a Sidcot Summer School – but you always remain a special part of my own Bahá’í history, along with all the others from ‘Clerdoun’ days…
patsy0154 said:
So lovely to read your story Ann! I didn’t know how you had first come across the Faith. We remember those Epsom days so fondly. So full of love and laughter!
Ho-San Leong said:
Dear Ann, I have today finished reading Phillip’s story and had to continue into yours! I have always remembered with great fondness my meeting you for the very first time in Frankfurt at the Dedication of the House of Worship in Langenhain, a chance meeting that has spanned 50 years of friendship since.
Your stories complement each other well, and I cannot think of you and knowing you over the years without Phillip somewhere there. You are just inseparable, and a wonderful example of a loving husband and wife team, in constant service to the Faith and the community. A hard act to follow!
We are so fortunate to be in the same community with you here in Wollongong, a long long way from Langehain and later London in those heady days of the 1960s. We certainly couldn’t have foreseen the unfoldment of the years that brought our families together in so many different ways.
Thank you for sharing your story too!
Beverley (Evans) Matthews said:
Dear Ann, I love that you are a woman of fewer words than Phillip! You danced us a beautiful story (Phillip gave the full Shakespearian production). What an inspiring couple you are, what illustrious memories! Your quiet achieving (memories of Wollahra) in motherhood, Baha’i service, your professional background… has always been a huge inspiration to me.
Much love, Bev
June said:
Reblogged this on Blogs by Bahais and commented:
This is a beautiful blog with stories of Baha’is from the UK.
Jenny said:
Dear June
Thank you very much for reblogging this post. It’s good to know that new people are following the UK Bahá’í Histories site. We are always keen to receive new stories from anyone who has an association with the UK Bahá’í community – e.g. they were born in the UK, met the faith there, declared there or just lived in the UK for a period of time.
Jenny
Co-ordinator, UK Bahá’í Histories project
June said:
You’re most welcome. I will let our readers know.
June said:
Thanks for such a lovely blog.
Jamine Stander-Neef said:
Thank you Ann for sharing such a wonderful account of your spiritual/Baha’i journey. It’s lovely to know more about your life experiences, having known you and Phillip and your boys for so many decades, yet still not knowing much of your background. Thank you for sharing. Much love to you and Phillip. x
Desma Carver (was Deutscher) said:
Dear Ann,
Thank you for sharing your beautiful story. Phillip stayed with Stan and me in Maryborough. It was wonderful having him – lovely memories! It is so good to fill in many gaps through your story. Love, Desma
BookOfPain said:
What a great story, beautifully and humbly told! Hopefully, Canada never starts this as I would have to confess the full story that my journey into the Faith started with a really, really cute girl (she was, I was told, useless to pursue as she was into some weird Eastern religion) that I was doing my most gawd awful teenage best to attract. 🙂 Looking back, it’s a miracle that she didn’t run away or thump me on the spot.
Flora said:
What an inspiring and beautiful story. Loved reading your story. The Baha’i Faith is such an amazing and peaceful Faith which brings so much tranquility and love to our heart. You are such an inspiration. Thanks for sharing your story and I will share this on my Facebook so others can benefit. Baha’i Love to you and your beautiful family.
Pat Espinosa Klem said:
I really enjoyed your beautiful story , you are the sister I have not met. Thank you for sharing.
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Caroline Eglinton said:
Dear Ann,
THis is Caroline Eglinton – nee Davies – did we share a flat in Alsop Place, Baker Street, in about 1961-1962? Was reading David Hare’s autobiography and he mentioned Philip Hinton, which rang bells. Looked on line and think we shared a flat, and my late husband Guy, a doctor, and I visited your parents, and you and Philip visited us at our home near Barnet in Hertfordshire. I am still in the same house, but sadly Guy died nineteen years ago.
I am sure it’s you from your photos. We shared with Jacque Thomas who has sadly died years ago. I am well, still working, playing tennis etc.
I gather you are the other side of the world, so would be amazed if you replied to this.
Anyhow here’s to old times and lots of love. Caroline
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